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| Letting go is the hardest part about it
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| So I haven't really done much this summer, besides work. Which is fine because it keeps me out of trouble and because I get paid. I'm doing a lot better in my new job. I'm more comfortable and I'm starting to get along w/ my other co-workers, so it seems. I've been hanging out w/ friends I haven't seen in forever, it's nice to see them. I didn't realize how much history I have w/ other people. I just sit back and remember all the good times and it was such a long time again. Damn. I've also meet a lot of new characters. Oh, have i ever! Everyone is so different from one another, but in the same sense we are all the same. It's all around just weird. | | |
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| Wise men talk because they have something to say.
Fools talk because they HAVE to say something.
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| I've always wondered where I would be in 5 years. It's going on 2 years since I last actually thought hard about it and that was when I was sitting on my hard medal seat at graduation listening & watching all my classmates walk across stage proud. I wondered to myself which friends i would hold dear to me and which ones would become a thing of the past. I've grown up a lot since then, and I got a lot more than what i had actually thought would happen to me. Who would have known that I, Maricel, would have problems staying out of trouble w/ the law. Me.....of all people...the quite one in the back of the classroom. Never got in trouble (to a certian extent) Oh....thats what people thought. And that's the way i liked it. Because in my head and outside of school where no one knew me....I was a different person. Now, I'm not saying that I was being fake...no no...I just didn't allow myself to be the center of attention. and i didn't allow my actions to be all over the place. I would never want to go back and relive high school. that would be dreadfull....already went thru it once....You know you think you're going to do all these great things when you think you grow up. But really, things that you thought were great, dont really turn out to be that great as you had thought.
I could go on and on about how usless I feel but....that would just be asking for rounds of laughter and why do that to myself, I already know i haven't accomplished much. I'm just a simple person doing simple things, trying to stay out of trouble and live my life to the best that i can and be happy at the same time.
Am I happy?
Yes.
But could I be happier?
That is a question that will never be answered. | | |
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